All we can do is our best...Captain America: Winter Soldier

Captain America:  Winter Soldier
Steve goes to visit Peggy Carter, his love interest from Captain America:  the First Avenger, who is now close to 100 years old.  She is lying in bed.

Steve:  You should be proud of yourself Peggy.

Peggy:  I have lived a life.  My only regret is that you didn’t get to live yours.  What is it?

Steve:  For as long as I can remember, I just wanted to do what is right.  I guess I’m not quite sure what that is anymore.  I thought I could just throw myself back in, follow orders, and serve.  It is just not the same.

Peggy:  You are always so dramatic.  Look, you saved the world.  We rather mucked it up.

Steve: You didn’t.  Knowing that you helped found SHIELD is half the reason that I stay

Peggy:  The world has changed.  None of us can go back.  All we can do is our best.  And sometimes the best that we can do is to start over…. 
Peggy has a coughing fit.  Steve gets her water.

Steve:  Peggy

Peggy:  (recognizing Steve like she has not seen him since he awoke, deep emotion in her voice) You’re alive.  You came back.

Steve:  Yeah

Peggy:  It has been so long,  so long

Steve:  Well, I couldn’t leave my best girl, not when she owes me a dance…

Can you hear your Soul speak?
This is a beautiful tender scene where we learn that Steve Rogers (a.k.a. Captain America) is indeed struggling with SHIELD and SHIELD’s tactics.  He is wondering whether to stay in or get out.  He is unhappy with the agendas and ways SHIELD goes about its work to keep the world safe.

He is, quite frankly, not on board with SHEILD.

We will find ourselves in that place from time to time in our lives — that place where we feel like our Soul is not aligned with the mission of the organization, work, or congregation that we are currently involved in.

This moment, this dissonance, is an invitation to awaken to a new level of Soul Consciousness.  Your Soul has something important to tell you.  Stop and listen!

Steve Roger’s values and morals are being compromised.  He is becoming more and more uncomfortable with that compromise.  He is not seeing any good, any movement forward to be better place.  After his conversation with Nick Fury, he now sees how deeply SHIELD is entrained with fear and control.

We must heed the voice of our Soul when it speaks up, especially when it says: “I’m not comfortable with this.”  or “You are compromising your integrity if you do that.” or “This doesn’t feel right, good, positive, or beneficial to the greater good."



What is your Answer?
These are the moments of transformation, healing, growth and evolution for ourselves.  We have the opportunity to step closer to the Sacred and, therefore, closer to our Highest Self.
They are not easy decisions.
I am thinking about all the Border Patrol agents during the time child separation became a policy, especially those who have been doing this for a long time.  Maybe when they began they felt like they were helping to make the world a safer place.  They were helping refugees and immigrants work their way through the system to safely enter our country.

Now, they are being asked to do criminal acts against humanity!  They are being asked to do things against their conscience, their values and morals.  (I hope they feel that way.)  

What does it do to their soul to go about their job, compromising their Soul, their values, for no greater good?  

Yet, I have compassion.  Some of the Border Control have been placed between a rock and a hard place. Maybe they are close to retirement.  Maybe they need to support their families and can not go without an income-producing job. I have Compassion.

And yet, when we come to those moments in our lives, we must chose our Soul, we must chose Justice, we must chose Life.  

These are not easy choices.  

Our Soul’s are asking us to evolve, to up our game, to stand for WHO we are, to BE Christ Consciousness in this world.

That requires that when our Soul’s speak up and say NO, we must heed that no.

I don’t say it lightly.  I’ve been unemployed, homeless and more because I heeded the NO from my Soul and went on my way — making clear my reason for leaving, my recognition that harm is happening here, that this is not moral, not Christian, not for the benefit of the common good.
In the end, after I have found my way to another call, I look back and know I would make that decision again and again.  
I never regret when I heed the call of my Soul — no matter the cost.

I do regret when I ignore it.

Remember:
The Sacred Spirit is always with you 
always companioning you
always cheering you on
always enticing you toward Justice, Wholeness, Compassion
All we need to do is say YES to our Soul’s Call.
It is Spirit’s Call.