You will remember from the previous post that at this moment in the film, Avengers, Captain America has arrived to face and fight Loki. He has landed with his shield, protecting a man who courageously stood before Loki, speaking truth to power. Loki had aimed his scepter at the man moments before. After shooting his scepter and being blocked by Captain America….
Captain America: You know the last time I was in Germany, and saw a man standing above everybody else, we ended up disagreeing.
Loki: “the soldier… the man out of time”
The liminality of Time...
Captain America is, literally, a man out of time — the linear time line. At the end of Captain America: The First Avenger, we watch as Steve Rogers forces Red Skull’s plane down into the ice cold waters. Cap freezes.
Captain America is found decades later by SHIELD and thawed. He is a man out of time. Steve Rogers has no references for this current time, this current culture. He holds values and moral center from WW2 era. He looks 30 or so but is 100 years old.
Have you ever had that experience, where time goes away, where you feel like you are not connected to time — literally “out of time”?
What do I mean?
Stepping into Kairos time...
When I was beginning to create High Desert Essences in Taos, NM, I felt the invitation to create Chive essence. I followed the way I was taught: put a glass bowl of spring water in the Sun with one or two flower dropped in it. Leave it for 3-4 hours on a full Sun day. I did just that.
When I went to pick up the essence something did not feel quite right. I tasted it. It tasted like Chives. So I decided that was not going to work for High Desert Essences. This is the moment where I learned my method of co-creating flower essences — Chives taught me.
I did not want to waste the essence, that would not honor the gift of Chives. Without thinking, I downed the entire bowl of pure potent Mother essence. That was on a Monday.
Next thing I know, I’m getting a text from a one of the women I painted with regularly. Because I was currently in NM, I video called in. The text read, “Are you joining us today?” We painted on Thursdays, so I replied, “Yes, on Thursday.” An answer came back, “Well that is now!”
Somehow I had lost Tuesday and Wednesday. I had no idea where they went. It felt like only 3-4 hours had passed since I took that Mother Essence. How could 3 days have passed?
It took me about a month to ground myself back into the human linear timeline that is seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years. Somehow Chives had aligned me with a very different timeline — Kairos, Sacred, Universe. This timeline is not linear. Rather it felt more like the timeline of the Heptapods from the movie Arrival.
When I was able to reconnect with this linear timeline, I became aware that Chives had restructured my energetic and physical body to be in greater alignment with my Soul’s purpose and Soul-volution.
It was a powerful experience. I am forever transformed by each experience where the Sacred pulls me out of linear human time into Kairos time.
It takes adjustment when you return, like it took adjustment for Steve Rogers. Depending upon what happens when I am out of time, the adjustment back varies. Sometimes I can step back into time and move forward without delay. Sometimes it feels like I have lost 70 years or more, like the world I have come back into is completely different than the one I was in. When that happens, I am aware that I am so very different than I was before.
I would not recommend downing an entire bowl of pure Mother Essence to experience what it is like to step out of time.
Meditation, prayer, silent retreats, dosage level energy essences, and other healing and spiritual experiences open you to those moments, to those experiences.
It is vital that when you intentionally ask to step out of time for healing, transformation, restructuring, soul-volution, you do so with an inner knowing of what you are seeking. Conscious awareness, consciously co-creating the out of time moment will enhance and potentize the transformative work that you are seeking, doing, manifesting.
When you come back, allow yourself the linear time you need to integrate the healing, the evolution, the experience before stepping fully back into society, into the hum of linear life.
Enjoy the experience.
The veil is always thin….
always awaiting your request
to offer you
a Kairos experience.
Captain America: The First Avenger
Captain America: The First Avengers
Steve Rogers’ Captain America uniform and dancing women have gained him such popularity in the States that the Senator sends them all overseas to entertain the soldiers. The first show has Steve on stage being heckled by the soldiers.
Sitting off to the side as the women are dancing, he pulls out a notebook and is doodling. Peggy Carter shows up:
Peggy: Nice performance
Steve: Yeah…I had to improvise a little bit.
Peggy: I understand that you are America’s new hope.
Steve: Bond sales take a 10% bump in every state I visit.
Peggy: Is that the Senator I hear?
Steve: At least he has me doing this. Colonial would have had me stuck in a lab.
Peggy: And these are your only two options? a lab rat or a dancing monkey? You were meant for more than this, you know?
Steve is thinking about what Peggy said. Peggy: What?
Steve: You know for the longest time I dreamed about coming over seas and being on the front lines, serving my country. I finally got everything I wanted…..am I am wearing tights.
Steve, as a soldier is being brought to the medical facility: They have been through hell.
Peggy: These men more than most.
Then Peggy explains that this unit was sent to fight a Hydra base — 200 went and 15 returned. She explained the the audience contained what was left. This was the 107th, the unit that Steve’s best friend was part of. This sparks a flame in him.
He learns that Bucky, his friend, has not returned. The Colonial’s solution is to win the war, believing that it would be suicide to attempt a rescue.
In that moment, Steve experiences his Awakening. Who is he? Is he meant for more?
He decides in that moment to step up, to fully embody his call, to rescue the 107th….
When we compromise our Call, when we chose to stay small, as I wrote in the previous blog, Spirit offers us an invitation to step up.
We can chose to stay small, to not heed those invitations, to continue on through our life with blinders around our eyes, hearts and souls.
We can answer the Call of our Soul, the Call of Spirit. We can step up!
Saying Yes to our Soul
The next series of scenes in Captain America: The First Avenger, show just that. Steve Rogers steps up and becomes Captain America. It requires that he face his fears, that he challenge his abilities and skills.
Alone, he jumps from a plane, finds his way across enemy line and into the Hydra base. He invades the base and releases the prisoners, continuing his search for Bucky. Once he rescues Bucky, he is confronted for the first time by his arch-nemesis Red Skull (the other enhanced individual from the serum, the one the doctor described as evil amplified).
Cap makes it out alive, with Bucky and the rest of the 107th, returning on foot to basecamp.
The work of Awakening
When we step up, it is not all Light and ease and beauty. There is struggle in fully embodying our Call. We must confront our fears, our Shadow, our apathy. We must test and learn new skills and abilities.
It is work. Life enhancing, life giving, life re-invigorating work. But work, nonetheless.
As we say yes to our Call and begin our journey toward fully embracing our Soul’s purpose, we will encounter support and allies who will companion us, encourage us, support us, and help us clear the obstacles that are in front of us; just as Bucky and the 107th do for Captain America.
We are not alone.
When we come face to face with our deepest fears, our Shadows, Spirit is present reminding us that we are not our Shadow. We are more than the darkness that we keep hidden, stuffed deep down inside ourselves. Spirit will remind us that what we chose to feed is what is amplified.
When we come through this process of embodiment and integration, our community, our family, our friends will be there cheering:
“Let’s hear it for Captain America [You]”
In that moment, in that recognition, our souls, our hearts smile knowing that we have arrived fully. We are who our Soul yearns to be. We are who the Sacred created us to be.
Now the work is to continue to be our Soul, to emanate our Soul’s purpose authentically in the world, without compromise…
Find your inner courage and strength.
Say yes. Say yes to your Soul.
It is worth it.
Pastor Jocelyn Emerson weaves together her training as a Light and Energy worker, Reiki master, spiritual director, and Pastor with her life experience as a mystic and contemplative to offer a space of trust, safety, and honesty to support you on your life's journey.